Loving the life I never imagined

I never imagined that I'd be one of *those* moms - I had never heard of babywearing. I thought midwives were a thing of the past. I never imagined I'd be a mom in the first place. Now I'm on the other side --I home waterbirthed my son in April 2010. My life is forever changed, and forever changing. This is my journey. Come along and learn with me!

Thursday, July 29, 2010

The Velveteen Rabbit

I read the Velveteen Rabbit to Penguin last night. The part about becoming real first brought tears to my eyes when I read it to my stepson, Monkey, years ago. Yep. Still makes me cry.

I love being Real. The stretchmarks, the aches, the pains, the lack of sleep...it's all worth it and I'm only 3 months in.

The quote I'm thinking of
The Skin Horse had lived longer in the nursery than any of the others. He was so old that his brown coat was bald in patches and showed the seams underneath, and most of the hairs in his tail had been pulled out to string bead necklaces. He was wise, for he had seen a long succession of mechanical toys arrive to boast and swagger, and by-and-by break their mainsprings and pass away, and he knew that they were only toys, and would never turn into anything else. For nursery magic is very strange and wonderful, and only those playthings that are old and wise and experienced like the Skin Horse understand all about it.

"What is REAL?" asked the Rabbit one day, when they were lying side by side near the nursery fender, before Nana came to tidy the room. "Does it mean having things that buzz inside you and a stick-out handle?"

"Real isn't how you are made," said the Skin Horse. "It's a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real."

"Does it hurt?" asked the Rabbit.

"Sometimes," said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. "When you are Real you don't mind being hurt."

"Does it happen all at once, like being wound up," he asked, "or bit by bit?"

"It doesn't happen all at once," said the Skin Horse. "You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand."

"I suppose you are real?" said the Rabbit. And then he wished he had not said it, for he thought the Skin Horse might be sensitive. But the Skin Horse only smiled.

"The Boy's Uncle made me Real," he said. "That was a great many years ago; but once you are Real you can't become unreal again. It lasts for always."
From  The Velveteen Rabbit by Margaret Williams


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